My grandfather was a quiet man, stared a lot into the distance sort of guy. I take after him a lot. I’m told he wasn’t that way before serving in World War 2. He passed when I was 22, and I didn’t have enough ‘adult-time’ under my belt to talk to him about things like that. I have to take their word for it.
After the war he returned to his family in Philadelphia and drove a city bus for 25 years before retiring. My parents would let me ride his route sometimes, and I was incredibly fascinated with the giant vehicle that I might have thought was a dragon at one point. Probably all the smoke.
This item was his change maker that he carried every day he worked. He’d store it on a small table by the door, and I’d play with it endlessly, thinking it was my own personal puzzle box. Whenever I played with it, it was always empty. I asked him where the money was and he’d laugh and tell me it was the city’s money. They just let him hold onto it while he worked.
While I held it he’d tell me stories of the passengers he had that day. My grandfather saw a lot in these people, and many shared their stories with him. The nervous young man on his first day of work. The blushing couple on their first date. The lonely old woman who’d ride the bus just for someone to talk to. The exhausted workers just hanging on for another day. The teenagers who knew no fear and didn’t care about tomorrow. All these people, with all their emotions, and all their hopes and dreams in wherever they were going, handed my grandfather coins that ended up passing through this changer.
Once he told me about a middle aged man riding the bus to turn himself into the police for something (as explained to me, as a child, he took something that hadn’t belonged to him). My grandfather said he was sure the man was going to jump out of the bus at any moment and run. He held up his regular route and went around the block an extra four times while he kept talking to the man, whose nerves eventually calmed enough to be dropped off and face his own past. That’s who my grandfather was. I still miss him.
When I was nine or so, a candy store went in around the corner from the small row-home he lived in downtown. When I’d visit on weekends I’d ask to go, and get a piece of candy. He would always smile and say he had no change, he left it all at work. But he asked me if I had been good. Of course,I always said yes. He said good children are always lucky, and if I was really good, maybe there’d be one coin left in the changer by accident.
I’d push the release and out would come a quarter. At first I believe it was just me being lucky. As he’d perform this trick for me dozens of times over the next ten years I eventually settled on him setting up the changer with one loaded, or just some slight of hand he did. He was always pulling quarters out of my ear, so why not out of a coin changer?
When he passed away, my father told me his father had specifically asked for me to have that coin changer. It’s been my most prized possession ever since. Whenever I move it’s the last thing I pack, and the first thing I unpack. I still play with it once in a while. As an adult it’s a simple mechanism to understand, but I just remember all his stories and all the people who’s hopes, dreams, and coins, passed through this that I always find it fascinating.
A few months back I told my daughter to get ready to go, as we were about to head to a nearby restaurant. A diner really, nice place, low key. They have one of those prize machines in the lobby where you put in a quarter and get a plastic ball with something in it, an eraser, a little plastic doodad, stickers. She loves that machine, it’s endless wonder to her. She asked me if she could play the prize machine, and I told her I didn’t have an coins but I’d see what I could do.
I don’t know why but I pulled the coin changer off the shelf and had an idea. I asked her if she had been good. Of course she said yes. I said well, good children are often lucky, and if she was really good maybe there’d be one coin left in this old thing. She laughed and bounced over and pulled down the handle. Out came a single quarter.
To whomever set up this veil…if this gets destroyed…I will end you.
Token, you are bound
Your power now promised
Vowed token unbound
When need of you has ended
You are claimed for a time
And tethered by my telling
Onward to the source
Until you are released